the high healed shoes - books

books first,

i finished clea by lawrence durrell on tuesday, just before i left the house for the first of my bicycle mishaps...

it was beautiful, so many lovely images and situations, the joy of rereading good books (blue blanket books as ganching has them), episodes you've forgotten about that are suggested by some small thing in the book, only to come into focus once more...

hmmm

i can't rate the alexandria quartet highly enough...

so last night i started mr wroe's virgins by jane rogers... one of about 7 books that i bought recently and are waiting for me...

i bought this one in crouch end where this week i saw a book of fernando pessoa's poetry... (i want i want i want i want i want...)

so the shoes:

at the party on saturday night we played a set as nippy's band, (currently residing under the name groovechild), and before we began i was remarking on nippy's boots, big high healed affairs with a white stripe going down the sides... the drummer M also sporting some groovy studded rock'n'roll shoes and me just in my gradually wearing down-all the time shoes...

so R9, nippy's partner, was in some lovely Yves Saint Lauren high heals and somehow it was suggested i wear them for the performance...

now i've been thinking about performance for years now, particularly the energy of performance... being able to put on a good show... being a quiet, sitting down, pensive keyboard player i've pondered how i do this... and i've come to realise that my feet under the keyboard are the energetic focus for the visual side of my performance, above the keyboard i'm all mood and closed eyes, below the keyboard i'm rocking...

so anyway i took it on, just before we began the gig i divested myself of my own footwear and socks and did the high heals...

and it was strangely successful...

edge on the guitar said he looked over at one point and was shocked and slightly disturbed by the image, (something to do with his mum)... M on the drums said that when he messed up his part (noticeable only to him) he looked over at my feet and this made him feel better...

R9 in suggesting it (i think it was her suggestion) was partly under the influence of kemal (BB) who she'd loved & i guess one aspect of it is whether people seeing the shoes might jump to conclusions about my sexuality...? hmmm

R9 has lent me the shoes (they were under my pillow when i went to bed) and i'm pondering the whole thing... we're playing @ nippy's party in ten days so i'll be wearing them there, i wonder if i can afford to get a pedicure...?

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