fears, spider, respect

left work after a long awaited meeting with boss, in which i had some fears confirmed and some dispelled, found myself slowing right down to take it in, once more in the arms of arnica,

strolled along the river and went into the tate modern, which i haven't been in since they took down that amazing "weather project" months ago,

and found they've put up the spider, which is probably the first installation they had in there and which i missed, and have always regretted, along with a whole series of sculptures / busts, a few that caught my eye, rodin's balzac (rilke was once rodin's secretary), giacometti's diego (jean genet had a friendship with giacometti who did a portrait of genet, tiny head, huge body, a little like this diego, incredibly thin head), somebody's claudel, who has been on the edge of my awareness for years now, i somehow suspect that nella bielski's estranged lover in "oranges for the son of alexander levy" is paul claudel, although it's possible claudel's name isn't paul anyway,...

then i stopped into my local primary school to vote, Respect all the way, very coherent argument for voting this year, proportional representation in the London Authority, the inevitable tiny fuckwit vote for the British Nationalist Party, let's make their proportion as small as possible by all voting, i just hope it has worked, if the BNP get 5% they have a seat and racist violence is almost guaranteed to increase, beautiful world that we live in.

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