beginning the feeding forgiveness good food and company

balthazara looking a bit peckish today prompts me to get the food for her, thus beginning a routine that will last for a very long time.

she has been particularly close to me over the last few days, almost always full of love anyway but particularly so recently, i guess the catflap has been shut a few doors away and she feels rootless,... so hard not to project human emotions onto cats, so involved they are in our emotional lives. anyway, following that idea, just want to make sure that my / our hearts are open to her all the more... the irrational anger i feel when S hisses at her for fun...

i ended up running over to Manolis's cafe around 5, Manolis who is the only human being that i'm prepared to name in here, just because i think his cafe is so good and worthy of a visit, on hercules street, directly opposite the holloway odeon,

came in amongst an obscure conversation between him and his current help, a man who apparently has been involved in the place for years, listening to a greek singer who this other guy was saying sounded a bit like tom jones, true enough, manolis meanwhile translating the words for me, this from the chorus:

she is going everywhere saying i am the guilty party,
she can say whatever she likes i forgive her,

struck me today, deeply involved as i am writing this love is lies tune, at first just describing a deep emotional feeling, then gradually starting to be more specific as to it's cause in the song, approaching that and then backing away, a very personal song already, but how personal about the other person to make it - or how general? skating between real darkness and a certain redemptive quality, hearing forgiveness like that today was a shaft of light.

so i ate at manolis's, came back via auntie E's, chatted for awhile (as it is almost inescapable to do at auntie E's), popped in on josiah and grace, the dad was there too, so nice to see him with grace, she is a source of joy for many people.

then fell into cedric nash's marvellous evening with italian C, fantastic food as ever, great company, grappa, the nash dall is something to be experienced, he is cooking soup the night of my july gig, very nice indeed,

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