overwhelmed

so firstly, let's all breathe a sigh of relief that that advert for the gig is no longer at the top of this blog...

it happened... it was alright, sound man not really on the ball and a large group of loud men at the back shouting all the way through my set meant that i didn't enjoy it much at first, but as it went on i found a way in and it was good...

the second tune i played was a song i've been trying to write for weeks now and still haven't... the chorus is grace's name repeated, the verse on monday night was about me being in brighton the day she was born, before josiah even wanted to live in brighton, improvised in the way that i said it... i had a second verse idea about the melody to harbour walls but i only did the one verse... it was interesting, the first tune had gone down alright but i felt i needed to stake a claim to the space, in my own way, that second tune did that somehow for me...

improvising lyrics is something i like the idea of a lot... i'm thinking of not finishing that song anymore than it is now and doing it at gigs, using the verses as an open letter to grace, improvising but probably knowing the themes...

felinity was there with her flatmate E & her boyfriend G, P (poet) came with J, three lovely people i meet randomly in cafe's on or near the holloway road came... L from work came with a friend... dinah made it somewhere in the middle of my set, i looked up at one point and i could see her... raised a smile...

producer G was fairly dashing in a suit jacket over jeans, Hcello also fairly smart, me in the paul smith suit and one of the shirts i'd bought at gresham blake's on saturday...

the night was lovely, both M (cameron) and S who run the night were lovely... i was a social butterfly once i'd played, so many different people to see...

and it was the first of many such gigs that i hope to be doing with this trio... much to learn still... eager for experience...

since then i've been a little flat, or overwhelmed at times... funny the focus and energy that went into that gig and then the time afterwards...

cedric nash came round last night and we had a meal together with people in this house, very nice too, he is such a good energy to have around and we got on really well as a house for the first time in awhile...

i was up chatting to cedric & dinah until the early hours, quite trashed, a tiny absynth with cedric when he arrived, my share of 2 bottles of wine and then some smoking, we closed the evening listening to van morrison's common one album, very close to both mine & cedric's heart... he cycled off into the night and me & dinah played cards and laughed alot until we were a little straighter... even then it took me a long time to get to sleep, combined effects of getting trashed that night and the overwhelmed/lostness i was floating in anyway...

then today the rotherhithe tunnel... which i will tell you about sometime when i haven't told several days worth of stories...

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