winning

i've been losing a fair bit recently, over on gameknot,

also in real life, lost 2 games in a row to W, my G's dad, after having beaten him convinsingly always in the past... G, whose competitive streak extends to her imidiat family has stopped crowing on W's behalf now but i'm sure once she's reminded of it by reading it here she'll begin again...

funny how that paragraph contained many words that i couldn't spell, for once i decided to press on, not find another word i can spell... spelling,

anyway, losing...

i just won a game over there which was particularly satisfying, yes they quit before the final kill but still the magical energy of winning is there, somehow related to the killing of animals for food, some manly architype that my vegetarianism pushes into the realm of chess...

and i think that maybe it's a sign that my winning days may be returning,

damien rice's music, i always found it a bit like being in love, still has that...

like semble last week, their live gig, i was recounting it to M & L @ work and i made the same analogy, like being in love,

before remarking that i am in love... and maybe that's why i've been losing, some twist on unlucky in love...

anyway, beautiful day out there...

going out in it

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