love was lies

i realise that i'm quite affected by the autumn, a mild depression has been around me for a week or so...

and then yesterday morning i suddenly wanted to sing "love is lies" the desperately sad song i wrote over 4 years ago about the situation between me & E, long since over and in fact i haven't set eyes on her for at least a year, if not 2 or 3 years now...

so i had that lovely thing happen where i can remember some of the music/lyrics and i sing what i know, then gradually the whole song comes out of my memory - bit by bit...

i've been singing it for two days and in fact i'm evolving the arrangement of it also, this is because i'm thinking of an album and i'm putting this song into the album - i think...

it's a good day to do it because i'm doing all kinds of crazy things inside my computer so it's good to leave it alone while it thinks...



i'm currently moving all of "berger" (all of my hard drives are named after writers) over to "cortazar", from one 500Gb drive to another 500Gb drive...

once this is done i'm going to convert "berger"'s file system from FAT32 to NTFS - this will mean i can have files that are over 4Gb, something that i tend to have these days what with videos floating about, until now i haven't been able to move such massive video files over to "berger" and i didn't know why...

i'm hoping that once "berger" is NTFS - as "cortazar" is - i'll be able to plug them both in through the eSATA PCI card that came with "berger", currently "cortazar" is not connected by eSATA - it's connected with USB2, which is much slower...

of course making "berger" NTFS might mean the eSATA PCI can't see it either which would mean i'd have to convert "cortazar" to FAT32 as well to make it work with the eSATA card, although eSATA PCI cards can't be too expensive, maybe i should just get another one...

anyway, techyness aside, the other news is that floopy & T have left their house over near seven sisters, they've got a place closer to us which becomes avilable in 3 weeks and in the mean time floopy has got himself a workspace up in enfield where all their stuff now is, cleo (hunka munka) has gone up to liverpool to be with dinah's sister F, T is going to spend the 3 weeks in wales and floopy will be sleeping over @ spski's probably, while working in enfield...

once they're in the new place floopy will continue working in enfield and there are even plans beyond the new place, but they're not certain...

i spent wednesday last week helping floopy move stuff up to enfield and spski did the same on thursday & friday...

it's a mental time and i'm almost jealous of the change - strange but there you have it...

dawn project part 2

so, i know it sounds unlikely, but i think i'm getting up very early tomorrow to check out the dawn project part 2...

when i do it it will only take half a day, from 8am ish to around 1 pm...

i want one of these amazing days like we've had for the last few...

my moog improvisation is still rendering, it's rendered twice already, i downloaded some software for an obscure purpose and it messed up my rendering, even though it wasn't involved in said rendering at all, it messed it up,

and i didn't work it out until after i'd rendered it twice, 10 hours each time,

i'm fairly sure i've fixed the problem, the piece of software was a demo and it said it would only work for a few minutes until i registered it,

well what they didn't say was that they would also make someone else's codec (which is free, and which i was using already) not work for more than a few minutes...

the LAME mp3 codec that i use with virtualdub to achieve nice high bitrates for mp3 audio, this retard piece of software made this not work after a couple of minutes of audio...

this is what i think happened... tomorrow i'll wake up and before i go and investigate the dawn project part 2 & i will see whether this last render has worked or not...

i uninstalled the troublesome program, reinstalled all my codecs...

fingers crossed...

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techy

windows xp service pack 3,

arrived this week, and disabled the bottom part of my screen for a few bootups...

this time it's ok but i really hope it's not an intermittent problem, my old computer used to have it and it drove me balmy...

the next time the problem comes back i'm getting rid of sp3, a whole lot of people on the web saying they have problems...

in other techy news i finished half life 2 last night... great game, great story...

good to have it gone though, all together too compulsive...

and finally i'd like to morn the demise of smartftp, free version,

this week they upped sticks and moved to the pay only way and i'm afraid that means i'm parting company with them,

not to worry, filezilla comes running into the fray, a new face (for me), i'm just marking this transition, one gets used to seeing things a certain way when one does a series of actions every single week...

ok another techy thing, i'm thinking of changing the way i do the rendering for the improvisation, it's been a certain way for years, video & audio, wmv & wma, which i learnt from someone as a way to get good clear images on youtube, googlevideo converts it into divx with mp3 audio, so i'm tempted to start delivering divx with mp3 audio straight to googlevideo...

but vegas won't deliver that, at least not with high enough mp3 rates, (56Kbit/sec), so i've found a great program that will make vegas think it's rendering uncompressed video/audio, but is actually freezing time (quite matrix) and delivering the video - frame by frame to whatever other program you wish,

so i'm going from vegas, through frameserver, into virtualdub...

i haven't yet found the best results but i'm heading in the right direction...

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